APOLOGY TO CHIEF AT SPANKINGBLOGG & TEEN SPANKINGS
I would like to unreservedly apologise to Headmaster for treating him like the hired help and also taking him for granted! I fully realize that he has a life of his own, a very busy life that doesn’t involve me bugging him and bombarding him with mails/texts to update my blog or treat him as an easy option because I wanted some more free time to myself! I also accept that he was extremely pissed off and that I had to pay a humiliating price if I ever wanted him to help me out (when he naturally has the free time himself) in the future! I have accepted that my behaviour was wrong and fully understand his anger. In future I should neither expect or hassle Headmaster to help me out but stand on my own 2 feet and ask for advice, he in turn will help me where possible and still contribute when he can or cover for me if I am genuinely away etc.
As a price, he shamed me by placing up the one movie I have always not really wanted to discuss, however, this time, as part of my penance I have been asked to talk everyone through it! As he has already posted (that horrible) movie clip and images of me snivelling and afraid, we have agreed that no further clips should be shown but I can explain through images and text what happened throughout and also give you an insight to what I was feeling, and of course who was actually there.
Me looking very worried in one of my favourite school uniforms
Ok, the subject of buggery came up in a drunken conversation I had with my other half, it was something I had never done or was really interested in, but over several bottles of wine we made a decision that it could be the subject for a film, imagine the choice, being caned so hard you could not sit down for a week (I didn’t fancy that to be honest) or being buggered, on film (the thought was horrendous) or imagine that really, there was no choice and that the only choice would be if I was caned first or buggered first, but I was going to get both because I had so pissed him off! Ok, I said, it’s a good start, there’s really no choice, what a horrible situation to find yourself in, and of course it was to be done in my school uniform, imagine coming home from school and having that! Oh My God!
I think you have seen from the previous clip that I was given “that choice” and I was genuinely nervous as we had kind of made out the guideline to how it would pan out, I’d get caned first, then when I was genuinely feeling the strokes of the cane I’d be roughly fingered up my bumhole, being greased up while he verbally humiliated me then the ultimate sanction, the buggery and finally, if I was up to it, I had to perform a sex act on him. before we started, I had an enema, we bought the equipment and I had been testing it out so got used to it, I have to say it’s a good feeling, however, cleanliness is important of course! So there I was, shaking in my school uniform, my bottom emptied and cleaned knowing that I’d soon be caned first then the buggery, I must be honest, the caning was a bit of a blur, I had other things on my mind, but a few strokes of the cane brought me back to reality as I do remember the strokes were quite hard! This was going to be one of those days I’d never forget!

Before I go on, I have never seen this movie myself in full, I refuse to and I still have not, so this is from my memory, but the events that followed I remember well, I knew the caning was coming to an end, and there was an air of expectation as the next part had never been filmed before! I can tell you there were many “cuts” as cameras were replaced by the 2 cameramen and there was only one other person present helping out with lighting and getting the direction right! So in between these stoppages there was plenty of time for me to get nervous again and for the first time, my other half felt my nerves and he too was a little worried, what if we’re doing something wrong? I think he was more worried about not rising to the occassion, after all, we were hardly professional hard core porn stars, and there were no “fluffers” for him, well, me… but I he wasn’t about to get a hand job off me in front of the film crew unless that was in the film, lol!

So when “action” was called again, I was bent over the table, genuinely worried and sobbing as he greased up his fingers to explore my most private hole! I had honestly never been violated there and now under the blazing lights, my virginity up there was being taken in a most crude manner! We actually cut the scene a few times and of course, a lot of this was acting as you can imagine but very real tears were welling up inside of me as I had never ever felt as submissive as this and this was just the beginning! Eventually once he could tell I was more relaxed there, I actually felt a tiny bit of understaning of his nerves as now was our moment of truth, his pants were already down and I could feel his cock nuzzling against my greased up piant hole. I was hoping he’d push it into my proper hole and a quick thought of lust overpowered me and something else, deep shame engulfed me as I felt pangs of enjoyment that I was doing something that so many people consider “wrong”. That feeling didn’t last long though as he edged the head of his cock and pushed a little more forcably, that moment of truth had arrived, once past the barrier, I would be his!

There was a moment of unnatural pain followed by him getting it right in, I had swallowed him whole and he was buried deep inside of me, the pain subsided only for a moment as he thrust brutally, and I could hear him grunt! It was at this moment I knew I was being buggered, the tears that had welled up flowed and I cried as he removed my last sacred piece of virginity that I had cherished for so long! I remember looking up towards one of the cameras and seeing the cameraman, his mouth open in shock, yes this really was happening in a kitchen in the early afternoon!

The buggery scene was filmed in one go and I did cry cut when I felt it had gone on too long, they actually told me they were surprised it had lasted so long! Damn them! The next scenes were the sex act, of course he had to clean his manhood and I still felt vulnerable, the feeling of that buggering was now a dull ache but it was a sort of triumphant feeling if you know what I mean, I had dome something I had always considered taboo! The final scenes, I think he was more nervous, as I went down on him, I must admit I was now acting, however, sniffing and sobbing like that, it wasn’t hard to do since I had only to think of what had happened 10 minutes earlier and it’s strange but when you’re acting that you’re crying, it sure is easier when it happens naturally and I did, thinking of my utter shame did it for me and that’s how the film ended with me very tearful and being treated like I was something that I had brought in off my shoe from the park!

& there you have it, when the final “CUT” was sounded a huge whoop and chereing by the guys and much hugs made me feel better. I knew I had just participated in something I would probably never do again, but in a wierd way, I was glad I had done it, explored my bounderies and capabilities. I don’t think everyone could just go through something like that and become stronger for it! You must understand, this is not something I wanted to discuss, but to make amends to the Headmaster, I did this for him as he requested by way of apology! You can of course view this submissive work only via SpankingOnline - I think by experiencing this humiliation all those years ago, it has made me appreciate the bounderies of others and makes me want to explore with the more hesitant girls just how far I can take them as I know people can go a lot further than they believe they can, I should know!!!
I of course welcome any comments but please don’t get too personal about this experience I had wanting to know much more, I think I have just about told all there is to tell on this matter! OK, I got to go tell Headmaster his article is up, I hope he, like you all, appreciate what a very difficult time I had writing this, but I also hope you have a better understanding of this film and how it got made! Thank you.
Elizabeth. xXx